Posts Tagged ‘diary’

The Myth of a Single Cigarette

By Nicotinist On September 6, 2010 No Comments

For some reason, I have been lately having strong urges to smoke that legendary one cigarette. At first, I was feeling a bit confused, because I could not understand, why my urge to smoke has returned from its grave. However, after my initial shock was passed, I was soon able to realize, what was really going on. I had become too proud and careless. In a way, I had forgotten

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Urge to Smoke 2.0

By Nicotinist On August 26, 2010 2 Comments

I have been an ex smoker for almost a month now, I have noticed a lot of changes in my life. Most of the changes are positive, but I have to be honest with you and admit that I have noticed some negative side effects as well. However, today I am not going write about those negative side effects. Instead, I am going to describe to you, how my urge

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Why Did I Stop Smoking?

By Nicotinist On August 22, 2010 No Comments

Three weeks have passed and I have not smoked a single cigarette. I think that I am now ready to try describing my reasons for stopping smoking. One reason for waiting so long before addressing this important issue was that I have not yet been reasonable sure about my reasons for quitting. I guess no one can never be absolutely sure, but I feel that the time has come to

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What Has Smoking Cessation Given to Me?

By Nicotinist On August 15, 2010 No Comments

I have not smoked a single cigarette in two weeks. It feels so great to be free. The whole idea of letting nicotine addiction to rule my life feels very distant. However, I realize that there is still a long way to go, but I am feeling confident that I am ready to continue my journey as an ex smoker. Smoking cessation has got so many positive effects on my

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Testing My Decision

By Nicotinist On August 8, 2010 No Comments

It is hard to believe that I have not been smoking for over a week now. The process itself has been easier than I thought. I just had to decide that I will not smoke cigarettes any more. However, smoking cessation has been mentally hard for me. Sometimes I feel that I am transforming to someone else. Unfortunately, I do not like my new personality. Luckily, he won’t be with

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Three Worst Nicotine Withdrawal Symptoms So Far

By Nicotinist On August 3, 2010 2 Comments

This is my fourth day without smoking, and smoking cessation becomes easier every day. There are still moments, which makes me miss smoking, but they are getting easier and easier to deal with as long as I remind myself that I have stopped smoking. Some of the symptoms are however quite hard to deal with, and it seems that there is no easy way out. The symptoms will disappear eventually,

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The First Day of My New Life

By Nicotinist On July 31, 2010 No Comments

Today was my first day without smoking cigarettes. It has been hard, but not nearly as hard as I feared. The first two hours were really hard and seemed to last forever. It felt almost like torture. I was thinking about smoking almost all the time. However, I did not want to let myself down. It would have been a huge disappointment for me, if I would have given up

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My Last Day as a Smoker

By Nicotinist On July 30, 2010 16 Comments

After I woke up today, I realized almost immediately that today is my last day as a smoker. It really scared me, and I started having feelings of remorse. Stopping smoking feels almost like saying goodbye to a very good friend or ending an relationship. I had to motivate myself by thinking positive thoughts and remembering my reasons for quitting smoking. It helped a little bit, but I still had

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Introduction

By Nicotinist On July 24, 2010 No Comments

I am 32 years old, and I have been smoking frequently about eight years. I smoke about one and half pack of cigarettes in a day, and have been trying to stop smoking for several times. As you already know, I have not succeeded. To make matters worse, the reason why I ended up smoking again, was always the same. That is really embarrassing, because I have always believed that

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