Finding My Motivation After a Slip
As you might remember, my previous blog entry discussed about learning from my mistakes. Unfortunately, I have not followed my own advice. After my slip, I have had problems motivating myself to continue my life as a nonsmoker. Instead, I have continued it as a casual smoker.
The problem is that every time when I drink alcohol, I smoke cigarettes. I cannot understand, why I am behaving this way, because when I am not drinking, I have no urge to smoke. So, why am I having trouble to motivate myself?
It is obvious that I have not understood the points I made, when I confessed that I have been smoking cigarettes. The big question is, what can I do to find my motivation to stop smoking. I have decided to take following actions:
- Stop drinking alcohol. I know that this does not solve anything in a long run, but right now it is the best thing for me, because lately I have been smoking every time when I drink alcohol. Giving up alcohol is a natural choice, because I do not want to smoke anymore.
- Write down the advantages and disadvantages of stopping smoking to a piece of paper. Since I consider myself to be a sensible person, I feel that writing down the advantages and disadvantages of stopping smoking will make it clear to me that smoking makes no sense. To ensure that I always remember this, I am going to put that piece of paper to my wallet, and always carry it with me.
- Throw away every item, which reminds me of smoking. Even though I feel that I can be perfectly calm around items like cigarette lighters and ashtrays, it is better to throw them away. First, it is a symbolic gesture, which basically states that I do not need them anymore. Second, even though I feel that these items have no effect on me, that is not necessarily the case. Subconscious mind can be pretty damn deceiving, and I simply don’t want to take any risks what so ever.
I am also going to find some time to update this blog a bit more often. I am sure that there is at least one person out there, who is interested of finding out, how I am doing.
Am I Right?
P.s. My third effort towards a smoke free life started at 12th of December, 2010.
